I used the name Adrienne Ray for the first time about a year ago when a bunch of people called The Magnolia Committee was formed by a letter that I sent out trying to have a Gay Walk here in St. Louis. So this picture down here is a picture of Adrienne Rae, and so this song, it's the difference between being the leader and not worrying about everything and helping everybody to have good spirits and all that. And then the other side of that, when I have my own darker moments. The Activist's Darker Moments, this song is called.
Generally I'm makin it
But I have my moments too
Am I really ok?
When maybe what they're sayin is all true
It could be I'm some crazy
Or a joke to be shared by those who were spared
At least a bulky nuisance
This gay, gray business; this gray gay jive
But I'm alive, yes, I'm alive
And I wouldn't trade no places
With any of the places that I see
Laughing, talking, crying all around me
[Interlude]
Sometimes I've wondered why
A simpler life could not have been my own
But I find I'm not the only wonderer
In psyches in moments all alone
A woman spent time hating me
She thought that I would steal her man
I wanted to tell the truth
But thought it too uncouth to be
The tenants' latest gossip
So I just let it be and kept the laugh for me
I kept the laugh for me
And for you if you feel it too
I'll pass that laugh along to you
[Interlude]
The story taught me something
That there's no way to win
I'm blamed for what I am
I'm blamed for what
I'm not
So I might as well just be the feelings that I feel
And the me I'm led to be
And generally I'm makin it
But I have my moments too